Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Ruin and Restoration

As I am planning, writing, organizing, and preparing for this new beginning of Real Gurl Life, I am positively, absolutely, stunned.

It feels like yesterday that I thought the world, my world, was going to end. I would watch others around me, living life as normal, going about their daily business, and I couldn't understand why they did not feel the same fear and anxiety as I did. Why weren't they bewildered and riddled with fear and screaming for their lives? I felt it was obvious that I was doing those things and yet no one looked my way or paid attention. They couldn't see it because it was all being held on the inside.

I was sure I was going to die.